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I am swamped with schoolwork. And i love it! Though not a big fan of 2d (drawing people is a minor struggle), I am making it happen. Right now I'm in the process of creating a mock design of my company website for WEBDEV class. It looks great and I need are pictures. Yay.

Will be in manila in a few hours. Make it happen!

This was taken few weeks back, in Zoe's laptop. I dont know if i like it.




I never saw it coming

the virus
my best friend's battle into the unknown
an extended vacation
an unexpected meeting
gossip
making friends with the enemy

Carmelo and I agreed on not giving away too much information of ourselves. What can ruin you, you'll never know. People will use those against you. Turn you against yourself, even. A concept OF some sort

One time I was walking along Makati. My ex, Van, saw me. Exchanged words over text messages, nice. Didn't expect that

Having reconciled with Jr. Not a bad start but not something I would like to have happened. Can't say much bout her though. Is the juice worth the squeeze? Anyway I'm bored already. Well goodluck to you both. hahaha.

Seeing Mr. Hotshot up close- yet again. He wasn't so nice over dinner. Thankfully, Nicky saved me.

My weekend was so, so. Spent it with my friends in tagaytay. Fun at some aspects but not fully. Lacked sleep = headache and irritability.

Can't wait for tuesday.

I have so much to tell.

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chong, wag kang insecure! its not my fault you're fat

sus! play nice :p

Carmelo, Brent, and Chiera drove up to Tagaytay today. Then we, along with Zoe, Matt, and Xavier headed to Tali, had a normal fun day at the beach accompanied by the regular tokes & alcohol. They ended up getting pretty stoned & wasted so I let them sleep early. Now I'm still awake, tripping on donuts & X-Men. Zoe is here, she's looking at me weird. Weird. Looking at my brothers, they're so angelic looking when they're asleep. Completely the opposite when awake?

I'm feeling bored.

I feel better than my last birthday. Felt better waking up. Felt better at the thought of 16 text messages waiting to be read. Felt better going back to sleep. Felt better eating sausages for breakfast (same breakfast as last year). Felt better looking forward to later. Felt better drinking water. Felt better blogging about it now.

It had something to do with Sabina, dying at 22. I dreaded turning 22 somewhat. And throughout the days that followed May 15th of last year until yesterday, I seemed to have shared her thoughts, her emotional instability, her recklessness; I focused to much on that certain negative energy. It wasn't a bad year but it wasn't great either. And I definitely would've made it better. No regrets though. The brightest spark is still that undisputed fact that- life is still present & I'm alive to see it happen to me. And this year I'll still take Sab with me. Not much of her fears & pain, but more of her love for peace, love for life and love for me. Yay! I love you Sabs, Xanti, and Mom. :)

Ah-mazing!

Today I went furniture shopping. Saya! Will go shopping again tomorrow plus have lunch w/ Kang & Bim. :)

Note to the "wise"

You're wasting your time sulking, moping, and hating me.. but u don't really show it so for that, I'm thankful. But remember this though. I can read your emotions. You think you got your defenses up but boy, you're delirious. You're fucking transparent. Yoou're no stained glass, not a painted window. You're as transparent as that glass mounted on my picture frame. You want a new life? Preferably without me in it? Hell! I'd appreciate that. Go ahead. Get one! Hurry the fuck up, tard. You disgust me.

haha XMEN mode! peace bro!